The Candles

An autumn scent emitted from the candle on the side table. Picking up the lighter I stared at the five candles set up neatly on my dresser; three, tall white candles with two tiny green in between resting in a glass container. I close my eyes words tumbling into existence without any effort as I lit each wick; Let these candles guide any lost souls back home. Return to where you need to be. Let the light guide your way.

The flames flicker into existence, the wick crackling. This feeling... it's hard to describe. Familiar, like I've done this a million times before. It feels calming and rewarding. It feels like someone's listening. It feels... good.

An image flashes in my mind. I'm standing in a middle of a marble hall in bare footed, the cold stone beneath my feet. I'm standing tall dressed in a long white dress hanging every curve and the hem dragging behind me. My hair is longer, thicker, lighter hanging down to my waist. My fingers loosely laced together in front, gazing endearingly at the endless white candles lining both sides of the hall.

Have I done this before, long ago?

Name

Sitting here looking through a list of Welsh-origin names; Deryn, Arianwen, Ceri, Kiah, Seren... and then there was the name Lynn. I never knew that my middle name was related to a Welsh word, I was surprised to be honest. Though it's mostly a feminine name, it can be masculine. In English, the name can mean "pretty." However, it's roots derive from the Welsh (some sources just give a general category of Celtic) word llyn meaning lake and can be interpreted as meaning simply "lake" or "by/from the lake.

Bodies of water, such as lakes, have always been interpreted as connections with the Otherworld as gateways and the supernatural residents of the Otherworld. There are various stories, myths, and legends that have this water connection throughout the Insular Celtic countries including the island of Avalon, Arther receiving Excalibur from the Lady of the Lake, fae women being whisk away by mortal men to marry, and the list continues.

This would be a fitting name if the child is born a female. She would be named after me from this current life that she will be born into but still not from this plane. She will be fae, there is no question in that, a resident of the Otherworld. She would be from both worlds it would be only fitting that she should get a name that would work in both realms.

Lynn. I think that would be a nice name.