This is been one of the most interesting dream I've ever had.
What started from what I remember was that... I was in some sort of building that was dark, and old. The wood was darkened a dark brown color, almost black. I was wearing some type a tunic type of clothing or sari (a female Indian garment) that was pale purple with a dark, pale blue draping over my body with long flowing sleeves. I was wandering around looking around for a friend of mine until I found him. I can't remember his appearance to well but I know he was had a built form with broad shoulders with dark color hair. He seemed to be a god who had control of water. He was urging me to hurry and hide because another god was looking for me to either hurt me, or kill me.
He gave me some orders to head over somewhere with another female companion of mine. There was an explosion and he yelled, "Go!" before heading towards the explosion to slow down who I knew was the other god that was trying to hurt me.
We hurried to a community of people that lived in a large area underneath the wooden building that we were just in. Entering the place with my companion we realized that there was a stand giving out clothing that all looked the same; sari-like garments with a deep, rich teal color and bright orange to contrast. I exchanged my clothes for those garments as well as my companion.
When we finished changing guards entered the area searching for us. The guards were all male, swords at hand but they were very Indian looking. Dark tanned skin with faded white turbans wrapped around their heads. They had dark eyes with black sticking out the turbans matching the same black hair as mustaches under the pointed noses. Their outfit reminded of a generals with the top a pale, faded teal color with various gold medals pinned on and white pants. In my mind I knew these guards were of a higher status than a normal guard or soldier.
My companion grabbed my wrist as I started to panic when they moved closer to us within the crowd of people. "We'll split up. When you get a chance run far from here," she soothed, staring straight into my eyes before letting go and running through the crowd to blend in. Alone, I had no choice but to follow her advice. I pulled the veil that was on my head close to my face to cover my identity and fell into the crowd until I was able to escape from the area. As I was escaping I thought back at the water god, wandering if he was all right.
It blurs here and...
I was at Petsmart or some type of pet store with my current roommate Stephanie to help her find a betta fish since her plant was finally growing enough to put it in a flower vase. I had met up with and she had asked me to come. Wandering around the allies of aquariums, I finally told Stephanie that I would wait outside for her after she had chosen which the few she wanted. She answered back with an "okay" and I casually strolled outside. I then noticed I was wearing a t-shirt and some jeans with the hems worn out from wear.
Outside, the pet store seemed to be in the middle of nowhere. The environment had a red feel to it, I could see red rock mountains and the area was like the Arizona desert. It was all dirt with dried out scrubs and groups of cacti. The parking lot was near empty other than a few cars like Stephanie's vehicle. There was a black truck surrounded by three friends of mine; Kaitlyn, Martika, and Andrea.
Instantly I headed over to the group smiling in greetings, all of us began conversating when a lady came over. She was paled skin, like mine, with wavy, dirt blonde hair pulled into a low pony tail. Her eyes were green if I remember correctly, and her outfit that of a forest ranger's. She started scolding us, telling us we aren't suppose to be standing on the tar. She stepped away after Andrea and I climbed on to the back of the truck not wanting to get in trouble. Kaitlyn followed but Martika stood there with her hands on her hips. She looked irritated before exclaiming right as that ranger women returned standing behind Martika. Martika didn't notice and she started venting, "Who does that bitch think she is? Not standing on the tar?"
"Excuse me?!" the lady screeched her hands instantly going to her hips, eyes narrowed.
Martika turned but backed up her statement not taking back anything. "You heard me. It's ridiculous." Martika got in the woman's face glaring as the woman glared back. I uneasily turned to glance at Kaitlyn who looked just as uneasy. I felt like in any minute Martika was going to lose it and the Spanish would rolling off her tongue like she normally did when angered.
All of a sudden something caught my eye and I looked up to look in the distance to see a group of people dressed in black and something like kunai weapons in their hands slowly advancing, surrounding us in a curved line. I paniced at the sight and exclaimed, "Get out of here!" Everyone looked up and saw the approaching force instantly everyone scattered. But Kaitlyn, Martika and Andrea ran in the same direction making the force jump into action moving in their direction. I didn't move for some odd reason but seeing an opening I dashed forward, jumping down off the truck and head out to the what seemed-like the endless desert as fast as I could, dodging the bushes and cacti.
Seeing that I got out of their net, one of the soldiers went to the leader questioning if they should chase me down but the leader shook his head answering, " No. We'll eventually catch us with her."
After running for some time toward the red rock/mountain structure I found myself in a some canyon like area but a large stream ran through with a thick forest surrounding the stream, but the trees weren't as high as the the rock wall on the left side of me as I walked with the stream catching my breath. In my mind I knew that there were people in the forest looking for me like in all the places I've been. I felt like an animal being hunted, and I had a sudden thought, "If they are going to hunt me like an animal, I'm going to act like one." Hearing people approaching I paniced and instantly searched for a hiding spot. There seemed to be a "tunnel" on the other side of the stream with vines covering most of the whole. If I wasn't looking for somewhere to hide I would have missed it completely.
Jumping on the rocks the crossed the stream, and got to my knee not caring about the mud getting on the jeans where my knees were. Brushing the vines aside I crawled in the some tunnel. Inside there was some long grass that had been bent down from constant usage, I had to stay bent because I would hit the "roof" of branches so I moved myself completely inside having plenty of room and laid on my side comfortably in the grass. I could hear voices finally in hearing distance, three men I believe conversating.
"Do you think she's still in the forest?"
"Of course, she had to come through this place. She won't be able to hide forever, and we'll get her."
One of the men stepped close to my hiding spot, and I held my breath. For a minute I thought he was going to look down and see the entrance but then he kept moving. The voices faded away but I didn't feel safe leaving. Though I worried what made the tunnel, and if it would come back I was exhausted. I had been running for a long time, and I needed rest. Slowly I closed my eyes and feel asleep.
I woke up, slowly having everything return to me. I felt so alone and unsure of what to do. I knew I had to get out of here but I had I thought that maybe I should stay in the forest until they left thinking I moved on. Hungry and wanting to explore to understand the area better left my safe haven and wandered around cautiously. After awhile hearing someone I ducked into a small tree bush with one side of the tree growing by a huge bolder so I couldn't get sneaked up from behind. The leaves were something like pine tree needles but they grew to a yellow color near the tips. Listening I heard one man's voice trying to keep my self hidden.
"Those stupid idiots couldn't find anything if they wanted," he growled very irritated. His eyes looked around with a brown, bloodhound strolling next to him. But the bloodhound didn't seem to be working just strolling around with his master. Peering out a little to see him better, I felt my heart jump after I saw him better. Somehow I knew he was a specialized tracker. Just as that thought finished he turned and saw me.
"YOU!" He yelled as I bolted out of my hiding spot running for my life.
Jumping over rocks and running in the stream I kept going, kept running despite loosing the tracker for the time being. But I reached at the end of the stream. I stood on the dam edge looking down the dam to just see a pool of turquoise water. I couldn't see the bottom and the water looked one color other than the white bubbles from where the water poured. Not wanting to be caught I jumped and landed in the water.
It felt like I was sucked into an under current. I kicked to break the surface so I could get air, and finally I did. Gasping for air I looked around quietly and found myself inside a old, stone maze. There was water everywhere pouring out into the pool I was in. The stone walls reminded me of sandstone with very little decoration. Seeing that it was something like a maze, I could either go right or left. At the moment I just wanted to get out of the water and get as far ahead of the others if they even considered me jumping off the dam. I decided to go right and there were stones that if I climbed on that would get me onto the main stone level. With difficulty I got up, and observed around.
Instead of a maze like I originated thought, I concluded that it was an elaborate temple. Walking slowly, peering around the corner before turning I continued walking. As I continued moving forward windows starting appearing in the structure. I could see long green grass with little purple, and pink flowers growing within them with the blue sky and white fluffy clouds. Eager to be outside I hurried to get out of the temple. When I neared the exit I could hear a group of people heading towards me. I saw a stone ledge hanging above the entrance and climbed up there as fast as I could laying on it.
The group of people who had entered seemed to the civilians that used the temple. Women wore light, tan clothes to cover their chests with grass like skirts with various shells and fangs from an animal as accessories while the men were shirtless, carrying spears and grass like bottoms as well. They took no notice of me as they kneeled down, doing some type of prayer. I didn't pay attention, just hoping that they wouldn't see me. When the stood up, they started to leave but one female looked up and eyes widen as she saw me. Yelling in her language, she pointed up at me.
Next happen so fast I didn't know what happened. I was grabbed by ankles and wrists and was thrown into a meadow. But the meadow had sections of flower color. I landed in the light blue ones with a purple tint. I grunted in pain, rolling slightly from the landing and laid there. Suddenly elephants emitted from the flowers all one color marching right over to me. One that as matching the flower color I landed in, picked me up by the neck squeezing. I gasped for air managing the words, "You can't hurt me... There was a promise."
At the words, the elephant dropped me back on the ground as I gasped for air. The phrase that escaped from my lips made me remember of a memory of being with that water god and an elephant. He told me that the elephant would never hurt me but protect me as well. As the memory faded I looked up, a hand holding my throat I saw the elephants disappear back into the flowers with the civilians in awe of what just happened.
They kept me around, letting me wander the temple but I knew I need to get out of here and keep moving before the people chasing me caught up. A group of younger adults, teenagers, were throwing water balloons but I stopped two females. Both of them were young, opened eyed with their hair short but brightly colored. I can remember one having a bright orange hair. I asked for their help and they eagerly agreed.
They led me out of the temple to another type of dam. But this one was at least a hundred feet tall. A male person with long, pale tan hair was there and he was a traveler. Apparently I was going to travel with him, but at the moment we were stuck as to how to get down without getting hurt. Our section of the dam was like an arm off the actual main structure started to slowly sink. One of the girls had left but the other lifted a large cart that was dark green with holes in them. "We catch crab with these," she explained, though I didn't understand since the cart was huge. She tossed it over the side mentioning something like using them to float down the river.
"That won't work," the traveler had said bending down to look over the edge. The structure we stood at was still slowly sinking, and the girl kept throwing carts down. I decided to look down at the water and it was the same turquoise color as the water in the temple but I could see through this one. I could see the white sand at the bottom with dark green spots were groups of plant life grew but I saw silhouette of something large swimming by really fast.
When the structure lowered to about sixty feet I could clearly see what was swimming in the water which made me stomach turn with fear. They were large amphibian creatures covered in dark green scales with legs, and arms, a long mermaid like tail behind them. There toes and fingers were webbed, eyes lizard like but yellow and they held long trident spears. But what really scared me were their teeth. Long, razor sharp teeth that looked like they would rip me to shreds.
All of a sudden the male traveler jumped off the structure into the water. I gasped, eyes wide not believing what he did. Didn't he see what laid under the water? "What do you think you are doing?" I yelled down. After the words escaped my mouth the structure collapsed. I screamed as I fell face forward towards the water, stomach turning at the fall and fear taking over knowing what laid underneath the water. I knew I was going to die by the hands of these creatures.
Hitting the water is when the panic set in. I was thrown in circles underwater from my impact and from the structure collapsing. Bubbles clouded my vision as I spun slowly stopping. I saw one of the creatures swimming towards me, and I knew I couldn't get away. as it neared there was suddenly a blue circle around me, like a bubble, and I was gathered into a pair of waters. I looked up and recognized the owner as the water god that was my friend, my protector. "You..."
He ignored me, his eyes focusing in a narrow glare toward the creatures floating there, hissing, and baring their teeth. "If you know what's best you won't touch this girl." He threatened towards them before they reluctantly swam around them almost ignoring them. It was after that he looked down at me before surprising me with an embrace.
"I've been looking for you for weeks. Through the waters in hopes you would come in touch with the waters soon," he spoke gently.
As I let him hug me, I held on to him still frightened at the fact that I had almost died. It was hard for me to understand that it had been weeks when it felt like it only had been two days. And in my mind I finally realized that this water reminded me of the Greek God Poseidon though it couldn't be him...
Then my alarm went off waking me up. I think this is one of my most longest dreams that I have remembered.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Supernatural occurance?
On Friday I had such a strange experience. It happened in a few seconds but it was a bit frightening.
Coming back from the art walk that was held downtown, Stephanie and I came back to our room to relax since we had been walking for nearly four hours enjoying the shops, and art galleries. I sat down at my desk to get off my feet when all of a sudden it felt like a hand was placed on my right shoulder. The feeling melted through, and the muscle that was touched burned for a brief moment. Though when I felt the touch I jumped out of my chair startling Stephanie in the process.
It was strange, there aren't any rumors of Cowden Hall having ghosts haunting the building. Stephanie joked that a ghost followed me from downtown or on some part of campus. But whatever it was it really did startle me. I don't feel scared being in my room alone or anything but ever since that I've been having troubles falling asleep for some odd reason.
Maybe my self-conscious being alert?
Coming back from the art walk that was held downtown, Stephanie and I came back to our room to relax since we had been walking for nearly four hours enjoying the shops, and art galleries. I sat down at my desk to get off my feet when all of a sudden it felt like a hand was placed on my right shoulder. The feeling melted through, and the muscle that was touched burned for a brief moment. Though when I felt the touch I jumped out of my chair startling Stephanie in the process.
It was strange, there aren't any rumors of Cowden Hall having ghosts haunting the building. Stephanie joked that a ghost followed me from downtown or on some part of campus. But whatever it was it really did startle me. I don't feel scared being in my room alone or anything but ever since that I've been having troubles falling asleep for some odd reason.
Maybe my self-conscious being alert?
Monday, August 17, 2009
Another Power's Dream.
Last night was another supernatural powers dream.
The setting was a college like building with dorms and lobby type of thing going on. But the students in the school had supernatural powers. (Something like the x-men). I was a student there, and for some reason I had a twin brother.
I actually had darker shade of hair, almost brown. My power was actually over the element water/ice. My twin brother had dark brown hair, with his power being fire. Apparently though fire is broken down in four different types of fire; blue, green, red, and purple. My brother had control over green, red and purple fire which he was able to make precious stones out of. These gems were in the shape of a long crystal and would carry each color; red, green and purple between his fingers resting on the joints.
He was often mixed as a thief because of the gems, and how young he looked. He didn't really have the proper appearance either, his short hair always a bit messy and his clothing loose. But like a brother he was very protective over me despite me being the eldest twin.
I was helping some foreign students get settled in when someone approached, glaring at the students sitting on the ground since there were no more seats. He was Asian looking, taller than me with dark skin, and surprisingly, short, bleach blonde hair. His power was causing explosions, a fire related power. I was also going out with him, despite how annoyed I got with his aggressive nature.
He had a little friend next to him that I absolutely loathed. I thought of him as a leech, leeching on to a powerful person to get protection.
It's a little fuzzy on what happens but somehow there was a fight that started. My brother fighting my boyfriend because he lost his temper over something, and I went after the little leech. His power was strange. His eyes would roll in the back of his head when he did it and opened his mouth, a horrible screech would come out with the chance of making your ears bleed. Knowing this I did some hand movements, and had a thin layer of water covering my body, it wasn't noticeable since it seemed to disappeared. The little leech used his powers on me, but I couldn't hear it which startled him. Knowing it wasn't affecting me he turned and ran with me following. we climbed higher and higher in the school to the point where we were on planks of wood in an area that was off limits to construction from an accident.
Suddenly he whipped around and tried hitting me. I stepped back, but lost my footing over the plank, and feel down at least three levels.
I woke up after that.
The setting was a college like building with dorms and lobby type of thing going on. But the students in the school had supernatural powers. (Something like the x-men). I was a student there, and for some reason I had a twin brother.
I actually had darker shade of hair, almost brown. My power was actually over the element water/ice. My twin brother had dark brown hair, with his power being fire. Apparently though fire is broken down in four different types of fire; blue, green, red, and purple. My brother had control over green, red and purple fire which he was able to make precious stones out of. These gems were in the shape of a long crystal and would carry each color; red, green and purple between his fingers resting on the joints.
He was often mixed as a thief because of the gems, and how young he looked. He didn't really have the proper appearance either, his short hair always a bit messy and his clothing loose. But like a brother he was very protective over me despite me being the eldest twin.
I was helping some foreign students get settled in when someone approached, glaring at the students sitting on the ground since there were no more seats. He was Asian looking, taller than me with dark skin, and surprisingly, short, bleach blonde hair. His power was causing explosions, a fire related power. I was also going out with him, despite how annoyed I got with his aggressive nature.
He had a little friend next to him that I absolutely loathed. I thought of him as a leech, leeching on to a powerful person to get protection.
It's a little fuzzy on what happens but somehow there was a fight that started. My brother fighting my boyfriend because he lost his temper over something, and I went after the little leech. His power was strange. His eyes would roll in the back of his head when he did it and opened his mouth, a horrible screech would come out with the chance of making your ears bleed. Knowing this I did some hand movements, and had a thin layer of water covering my body, it wasn't noticeable since it seemed to disappeared. The little leech used his powers on me, but I couldn't hear it which startled him. Knowing it wasn't affecting me he turned and ran with me following. we climbed higher and higher in the school to the point where we were on planks of wood in an area that was off limits to construction from an accident.
Suddenly he whipped around and tried hitting me. I stepped back, but lost my footing over the plank, and feel down at least three levels.
I woke up after that.
Monday, August 3, 2009
Odd dream.
Then again, when aren't my dreams odd in some form or way.
The setting was in a mid-evil era or in just some type of fantasy setting. It was a small village/town where a lot of people were poor. The quality of the clothing was tattered, dirt smudges, and faded. Kids were looking through the streets for tossed out trash that may be useful.
I think I was some traveler passing through, and I was slightly anxious. (A few things happened but it's blurry) I was inside a stone castle, or home sitting next to gypsy man. He was an elderly man that hunched over, and held his dark green cloak close with the hood over his head. Across the table sat a soldier; he had a light bronze skin with golden blonde hair that fell in small waves to his shoulders wearing silver armor that covered every inch of his body except his hands and neck to his face.
He was accusing the man of being a gypsy, who in the dream was someone with supernatural powers of the elements. The man kept quiet and I was quiet along with him. Apparently I was a gypsy as well, I think, I was being accused of as well.
During the interrogation the village/town was attacked. Blocks of stone crumbled from the roof and both the the men looked paniced. For some odd reason I was really angry about this attack, my anger turned into "magic", my hands glowed a forest, green mint color. The elder gypsy apparently gasped and said that I wasn't a normal gypsy but something called 'Mother'. Those who are labeled as 'Mother' are special gypsies chosen by Mother Nature to have special powers greater than normal gypsies to help heal the earth and lessen the strain she feels with every day war.
After that, it blurs and I was rudely awaken by Jeremy (my mom's boyfriend, and soon to be step-dad). ...this could totally be something of a story.
I have another dream to write down and it's written in a notebook but I think I left it at Katie's house. -__-
The setting was in a mid-evil era or in just some type of fantasy setting. It was a small village/town where a lot of people were poor. The quality of the clothing was tattered, dirt smudges, and faded. Kids were looking through the streets for tossed out trash that may be useful.
I think I was some traveler passing through, and I was slightly anxious. (A few things happened but it's blurry) I was inside a stone castle, or home sitting next to gypsy man. He was an elderly man that hunched over, and held his dark green cloak close with the hood over his head. Across the table sat a soldier; he had a light bronze skin with golden blonde hair that fell in small waves to his shoulders wearing silver armor that covered every inch of his body except his hands and neck to his face.
He was accusing the man of being a gypsy, who in the dream was someone with supernatural powers of the elements. The man kept quiet and I was quiet along with him. Apparently I was a gypsy as well, I think, I was being accused of as well.
During the interrogation the village/town was attacked. Blocks of stone crumbled from the roof and both the the men looked paniced. For some odd reason I was really angry about this attack, my anger turned into "magic", my hands glowed a forest, green mint color. The elder gypsy apparently gasped and said that I wasn't a normal gypsy but something called 'Mother'. Those who are labeled as 'Mother' are special gypsies chosen by Mother Nature to have special powers greater than normal gypsies to help heal the earth and lessen the strain she feels with every day war.
After that, it blurs and I was rudely awaken by Jeremy (my mom's boyfriend, and soon to be step-dad). ...this could totally be something of a story.
I have another dream to write down and it's written in a notebook but I think I left it at Katie's house. -__-
Sunday, June 14, 2009
The Tale of Kathy
In the dorm I'm currently staying at is called Morton Hall. Morton Hall is one of the three oldest buildings on campus and they say that there is a girl named Kathy that haunts the place. They told us on the first night we arrived her story. Her story is simple one, but at the same time filled with confusion as to how everything happened.
Kathy was a student at NAU at the time, and was madly in love with her boyfriend. Their plans were to get married once he returned from the war. During her days she hung out in the basement and was close friends with the janitors that worked there at the time. But one day she received a call from her boyfriend breaking off the engagement and told her that he didn't love her.
Broken hearted she fell into a depression. She stopped showing up to her classes and even the janitors were starting to worry because they hadn't seen her around. They went to check up in her room and found blood on the floor but no Kathy. They found her later up in the attic where she had hung herself. Three days later they had found a dead baby in the basement where Kathy used to hang out.
Some people think Kathy was pregnut and she had killed herself after giving birth, leaving the baby for the janitors to find. Kathy had died in 1932. (Or I believe that is the year).
But I've had really weird experiences all ready within the two weeks of being here. Maybe she is really hanging around.
Kathy was a student at NAU at the time, and was madly in love with her boyfriend. Their plans were to get married once he returned from the war. During her days she hung out in the basement and was close friends with the janitors that worked there at the time. But one day she received a call from her boyfriend breaking off the engagement and told her that he didn't love her.
Broken hearted she fell into a depression. She stopped showing up to her classes and even the janitors were starting to worry because they hadn't seen her around. They went to check up in her room and found blood on the floor but no Kathy. They found her later up in the attic where she had hung herself. Three days later they had found a dead baby in the basement where Kathy used to hang out.
Some people think Kathy was pregnut and she had killed herself after giving birth, leaving the baby for the janitors to find. Kathy had died in 1932. (Or I believe that is the year).
But I've had really weird experiences all ready within the two weeks of being here. Maybe she is really hanging around.
Friday, June 12, 2009
May 16th Dream
This was a dream I had on May 16th, and thought it should be placed into this dream journal since it's been one of the most intense dreams I've ever had.
It's pretty jumbled up but I'll try and break it down into sections so you can tell what part of the dream shifted, and/or there's just a blank spot that I can't remember. But almost everything in this dream or dream felt real. Like I was really experiencing it.
We walked in a huge, gorgeous building. I didn’t recognize what kind of building it was at first; I seemed memorized by beauty of inside to really care. The walls were painted with a cream white color and were made out of plaster like a normal building build now a days. Everything was set up perfectly, but the thing that stood out the most though was a table with a pastel pink table cloth with a gold bowl sitting on top of it on the side of the hall we entered. I kept staring at it until at last I turned to Katie (or whoever was leading me) and asked, “Where are we?”
She gave me a strange look but answered. “In a church.”
For some reason I panicked; I felt my heart race at the thought of singing in a church. “I can’t sing in a church,” I replied, staring at Katie (or whoever) wide eyed. I started to move backwards towards the exit.
“What do you mean you can’t sing in a church?” Katie asked completely stunned at my attitude.
“I-I just can’t,” I answered back before turning around and hurried out of the building. It felt wrong to sing in the church and I didn’t understand why. Part of me was questioning myself as I ran, the simple questions of ‘Why can’t I sing?’ or ‘Did I do something wrong that makes me unworthy in a church?’
I wandered in between the chairs watching everyone with a smile. It felt like I came in to see someone, and I was patiently looking around for that person, a him. All of a sudden I noticed that some people were smiling at each other and nodded their heads as if they were silently communicating. All of a sudden they busted into song, taking turns before finally coming into unison. A few of the fairs sung and danced around me before continuing on their way.
I laughed really enjoying myself with their little performance.
I was talking to him, I don’t remember what about possibly about the performance. And I don’t even know what this person looks like; he’s like a silhouette in my dream. But I could tell when he smiled, or when his eyes brightened.
I was finally saying good bye to him, pulling away with a bright smile. I was moving near the edge of sidewalk, and I said another good bye and stared walking to where ever I needed to go.
This next part is a bit of a blur and how it came to happen, it was either I was pushed out of the way or it just happened, but there was a sound of a horn. I turned to see a bus (or possibly a car) on the side. He was on the ground and there was blood everywhere. Somehow there were medical people there all ready but I seemed frozen.
I felt my heart clench in fear and in shock. Like what I was seeing couldn’t be possibly happening. Finally when they loaded up his body in the ambulance, I was able to move again. I started rushing towards the vehicle but I was pulled back before I got to close. I don’t remember who grabbed me, I think some guy who was a friend of my unknown lover, and held his arms around my waist to prevent me from going anywhere.
“You can’t go!”
By this time I’m screaming, and crying all at the same time. “Is he okay? Will he be all right?” I kept struggling and finally I fell to my knees. The guy that was holding me disappeared all together, I had no idea if he walked away or how long I sat there crying.
A few days must have passed because I’m wandering around the area the accident happen. I was in complete despair and confusion. My chest ached horribly as I walked, searching. I didn’t know where he went. I didn’t know if he was alive or if he was dead. I didn’t know what hospital he went to. I didn’t know anything. But I kept wandering around in search for him, as if he would just appear out of no where and embrace me, saying he was completely fine.
I entered the same building that had all the drama people in it. There were less people inside this time, all dressed up again. But this time I didn’t really smile, my eyes just kept searching for his face. The people who were wandering finally started singing joyously, but none of it reached me. They encircled me with their smiles, bright eyes, laughter and hopeful singing.
I pulled away and hurried into a dressing room. Hesitantly I asked the people inside if they had seen him. No one had an answer.
“Don’t know. He hasn’t come in for days now.”
“Do you know if he’s alive?” I asked then feeling dread weld up inside. My hands were clenched into fists, raised up resting again my chest. I felt my nails dig into my skin as they answered.
“Don’t know.”
“Do you know where he is?”
“Don’t know.” All of there answers were the same. ‘Don’t know’. But that statement gave me a feeling that he was alive, somewhere. With a new found of small confidence I returned outside looking for him.
The sky was still the dim, and cloudy, exactly how it was the day of the accident. I paused briefly during my search to stare up at the clouds wondering where he could possibly be. I think I even asked God to tell me where he was (but I called him Kami-sama in the dream).
I found myself looking in an alley, but it was a beautifully set up alley full of cafés and other some businesses. But everything seemed Russian. The language was spoken all around me as I walked through. Everyone had light skin with dark features. People who saw me gave me a disgusted look before turning away speaking away in their language.
The café I walked by reminded me of a Greek type of setting instead of Russian despite all the people. The floor was tilted with a light marble yellow color. There were pillars surrounding the café like a decorative type of railing. The bar was set up nicely at the end with a bartender cleaning up some long, wine glasses and hanging them upside down when he was finished.
I felt my heart drop, not seeing him anywhere. I felt like I wasn’t going to see him every again even though something in my mind told me he was alive.
Then I woke up with the biggest heartache I’ve ever had. I actually felt like I lost this person, and that I really loved him even after I woke up from my dream. It was strange that I felt like that after a dream which has never really happened to me before. Even now, after all day for that feeling to wear off, it still feels like I’m attached to this unknown lover.
It's pretty jumbled up but I'll try and break it down into sections so you can tell what part of the dream shifted, and/or there's just a blank spot that I can't remember. But almost everything in this dream or dream felt real. Like I was really experiencing it.
I.
I was following someone from my school choir, I think it was Katie, and we were going to sing somewhere. We walked in a huge, gorgeous building. I didn’t recognize what kind of building it was at first; I seemed memorized by beauty of inside to really care. The walls were painted with a cream white color and were made out of plaster like a normal building build now a days. Everything was set up perfectly, but the thing that stood out the most though was a table with a pastel pink table cloth with a gold bowl sitting on top of it on the side of the hall we entered. I kept staring at it until at last I turned to Katie (or whoever was leading me) and asked, “Where are we?”
She gave me a strange look but answered. “In a church.”
For some reason I panicked; I felt my heart race at the thought of singing in a church. “I can’t sing in a church,” I replied, staring at Katie (or whoever) wide eyed. I started to move backwards towards the exit.
“What do you mean you can’t sing in a church?” Katie asked completely stunned at my attitude.
“I-I just can’t,” I answered back before turning around and hurried out of the building. It felt wrong to sing in the church and I didn’t understand why. Part of me was questioning myself as I ran, the simple questions of ‘Why can’t I sing?’ or ‘Did I do something wrong that makes me unworthy in a church?’
II.
I entered this building, the room was huge that reminded my of a gym at one of the schools I went too. There was fold up chairs set up everywhere facing the stage, and there were people everywhere. It was about forty people, a class size but slightly bigger. They were dressed up variously, I can barely remember any of the costumes; I can only remember a pair that were wearing matching pirate outfits. And everyone seemed to be in pairs, almost like they were doing the buddy system within the building.I wandered in between the chairs watching everyone with a smile. It felt like I came in to see someone, and I was patiently looking around for that person, a him. All of a sudden I noticed that some people were smiling at each other and nodded their heads as if they were silently communicating. All of a sudden they busted into song, taking turns before finally coming into unison. A few of the fairs sung and danced around me before continuing on their way.
I laughed really enjoying myself with their little performance.
III.
(This is sorta connected to the previous section.)
I was outside of the building I was just in, the sky was dim, cloudy as if it was going to rain. I was smiling up at someone my hands lightly in his. It was a guy, and I felt really connected to him. It’s really hard to describe in words what I felt. I actually thought of the word love in my dream. My body and mind just seemed to scream that emotion at me. I felt the feeling pulsing through my veins, fill my heart and mind. I really loved this person dearly.I was talking to him, I don’t remember what about possibly about the performance. And I don’t even know what this person looks like; he’s like a silhouette in my dream. But I could tell when he smiled, or when his eyes brightened.
I was finally saying good bye to him, pulling away with a bright smile. I was moving near the edge of sidewalk, and I said another good bye and stared walking to where ever I needed to go.
This next part is a bit of a blur and how it came to happen, it was either I was pushed out of the way or it just happened, but there was a sound of a horn. I turned to see a bus (or possibly a car) on the side. He was on the ground and there was blood everywhere. Somehow there were medical people there all ready but I seemed frozen.
I felt my heart clench in fear and in shock. Like what I was seeing couldn’t be possibly happening. Finally when they loaded up his body in the ambulance, I was able to move again. I started rushing towards the vehicle but I was pulled back before I got to close. I don’t remember who grabbed me, I think some guy who was a friend of my unknown lover, and held his arms around my waist to prevent me from going anywhere.
“You can’t go!”
By this time I’m screaming, and crying all at the same time. “Is he okay? Will he be all right?” I kept struggling and finally I fell to my knees. The guy that was holding me disappeared all together, I had no idea if he walked away or how long I sat there crying.
A few days must have passed because I’m wandering around the area the accident happen. I was in complete despair and confusion. My chest ached horribly as I walked, searching. I didn’t know where he went. I didn’t know if he was alive or if he was dead. I didn’t know what hospital he went to. I didn’t know anything. But I kept wandering around in search for him, as if he would just appear out of no where and embrace me, saying he was completely fine.
I entered the same building that had all the drama people in it. There were less people inside this time, all dressed up again. But this time I didn’t really smile, my eyes just kept searching for his face. The people who were wandering finally started singing joyously, but none of it reached me. They encircled me with their smiles, bright eyes, laughter and hopeful singing.
I pulled away and hurried into a dressing room. Hesitantly I asked the people inside if they had seen him. No one had an answer.
“Don’t know. He hasn’t come in for days now.”
“Do you know if he’s alive?” I asked then feeling dread weld up inside. My hands were clenched into fists, raised up resting again my chest. I felt my nails dig into my skin as they answered.
“Don’t know.”
“Do you know where he is?”
“Don’t know.” All of there answers were the same. ‘Don’t know’. But that statement gave me a feeling that he was alive, somewhere. With a new found of small confidence I returned outside looking for him.
The sky was still the dim, and cloudy, exactly how it was the day of the accident. I paused briefly during my search to stare up at the clouds wondering where he could possibly be. I think I even asked God to tell me where he was (but I called him Kami-sama in the dream).
I found myself looking in an alley, but it was a beautifully set up alley full of cafés and other some businesses. But everything seemed Russian. The language was spoken all around me as I walked through. Everyone had light skin with dark features. People who saw me gave me a disgusted look before turning away speaking away in their language.
The café I walked by reminded me of a Greek type of setting instead of Russian despite all the people. The floor was tilted with a light marble yellow color. There were pillars surrounding the café like a decorative type of railing. The bar was set up nicely at the end with a bartender cleaning up some long, wine glasses and hanging them upside down when he was finished.
I felt my heart drop, not seeing him anywhere. I felt like I wasn’t going to see him every again even though something in my mind told me he was alive.
Then I woke up with the biggest heartache I’ve ever had. I actually felt like I lost this person, and that I really loved him even after I woke up from my dream. It was strange that I felt like that after a dream which has never really happened to me before. Even now, after all day for that feeling to wear off, it still feels like I’m attached to this unknown lover.
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