A silver pocket watch

I had a really interesting dream in which might become an art project. I have no idea what any of this means but it is what it is.

There was this magician (sorcerer, druid, shaman, someone with magical powers/properties) who had a plan of finding all these different baby girls who were basically daughters of the moon. From the looks of it, he had to find the girls in order. I think I was the first one he had to find. He gave up a very special silver pocket watch that had a crescent moon marking engraved on the cover in order to have me as a baby. He treated me very gently with lots of care. He entered a room, there were two twin sized beds and he placed me on one of them.

I remember seeing phases of the moon and every time it was half way of the waning moon he would bring in another baby girl. But years were going by as well, and there were ten girls. I came across an area where there was a type of monument. Two crystallized crescent moon, one golden and the other silver were stacked up on each other creating this huge arch. It was connected to a pillar, and there was this pond underneath of it with crystal clear water. There was a figure sitting in the water (she kinda looked like Princess Serenity) holding something in the palm of her hand.

She was telling me that there were four more moon princesses (meaning all us girls that were found were moon princesses) to be found, and that they would be found soon. The youngest one, a golden one, would try to rise to power and that I would have to fight her to keep my title as the first born. She told me that it would seem like I would lose, but in the end I would be able to overcome this obstacle.

After that I can't remember much, other than small things such as white feathers and seeing that magician again.

A fierce storm

I know I had a rather long and complex dream, but I can only remember a certain part of the dream. First I was walking back to the apartment area with a friend, I had glanced up at the darkening sky to see the grey clouds moving fast and there there were two moons about to overlap each other. One was a crescent moon while the other was a quarter moon, but one of them started turning red. I was so surprised to see two moons, but to see one start turning into a different color was certainly something. I had nudged my friend about it but she didn't seem to really care.

Wanting to see a better view I went to the roof. The apartment area is set up similar to where I live now with the apartment buildings set up in a square with a grass field in the middle. On the roof there were tons of people that I didn't know to watch the sky. The sky was now covered with thick, grey clouds with tints of the color red touching the horizon, lining the clouds with a rusty color. But everyone wanted to see the lightning. I ended up finding another friend, Patty, and we watched as lightning crackled through the sky. This lightning storm is something I've never seen outside of my dream. The streak of lightning had so many branches that it resembled at tree. It was powerful, even in my dream I could feel the power drumming into my consciousness.


When I had woken up I decided to look up the meaning of lightning in my dream dictionary; The Dream Dictionary From A to Z by Theresa Cheung. The entry on lightning says; "...Because lightning has long been considered a symbol of communication between the world of the gods and that of human beings, if lightning appears this suggests intuition, inspiration, and the sudden awakening of psychic powers. In general, lightning indicates unexpected or sudden changes that are about to take place. These changes may be about your routine or the way you think. Lightning can also indicate a discharge of tension, or a necessary but destructive act on your part in order to make progress. Spiritually, lightning can denote sudden enlightenment or personal growth.

I wonder which meaning it holds for me.

Ritual

I did the "yes" board for the first time since arriving back in Japan. I also finally got candles to preform the "yes" board, the Crystal Magic Shop in my town is wonderful. I bought 15 small candles for basically $3. It's an amazing deal that never changes.

The only thing about the "Yes" board this session was I preformed it when I was tired. I kept making mistakes in setting up and any questions I had were out the window. But I did manage a few. I learned that my roommate has three entities that follow her; an angel (guardian angel obviously), and two ghosts which I am going to assume are family members. I wondered if I will catch "glances" of them when she arrives tomorrow.

But I am proud of one thing in this session. A ghost actually popped by out of curiosity and took over the "Yes" board briefly. I was asking basic question to figure out a little about him. But I was able to learn his name by listening. Since the "Yes" board is used for only yes or no questions, I asked him if he could tell me his name and I could try listening. I got the name David repeating in my head, and I ask if his name was David. I got a positive answer and the crystal started to spin with much more energy, he seemed really pleased that I was able to get his name too.



I feel a bit satisfied that my hearing may be getting better.

A Realization with Taran

This is just a realization that I'm surprise it took this long for me to realize it.

In the beginning when I was still unsure of who Taran was really, I tried channeling him twice and on the second night he decided to channel through Mi and establish some of the information the others were looking for. But he also stated quite firmly that he wouldn't channel through me unless he absolutely needed to. At the time though, and still now probably, I'm pretty "closed."

Another thing I've realized though he probably doesn't want to channel through me because of what he doesn't want me to know yet. When Taran practice channeling through Siusan, she mentioned that he doesn't really know how to guard his thoughts from her hearing/feeling them. That's probably the reason why he refuses to channel through me, because there is information that he needs to talk to me about and probably wants to actually talk to me about instead of me finding out through channeling. It suddenly makes a lot of sense. (And probably the other fact that I still probably can't do it)

Another Entity?

I guess I should mention before I get more into this post that during my study abroad time in Japan I met some people who helped one the door a bit wider. My awareness of the supernatural has increased but I'm no where near where I want to be. I have lots to learn but like how many say, the more you open the door the more you are exposed to dangers. Well, lately I can definitely agree to this about getting more attention.






Last night something happened. I am still unsure if it was all in my head as part of a dream because I was so exhausted from my trip back home from Japan or if it was truly supernatural. But I had stirred sometime in the middle of the night and I felt pressure on the corner of the bed as if someone was getting on, I recall watching the fluff of the comforter press down if there was pressure but nothing was there to be seen. Then there was pressure on my right thigh and that's when I panicked quite a bit. I felt like something was starting to crawl over me, and I can't recall an exchanging of words but I think it was trying to "claim me" to which I responded that I was not his to take because I all ready belonged to Taran.

After saying that, the pressure instantly disappeared. But that's when I definitely knew that I slipped into unconsciousness because I began moving around in the house but I felt a pressure in the back of my mind like the entity was still persisting after me. It got to the point I started throwing punches and kicks in certain directions to get whatever was following me away but I couldn't see anything of course and yelling to stop it.

That's when I actually stirred away, my heart beating quite fast. The first image that came to my mind when I woke up was that Taran was holding me close as if protecting me. I began to calm down and after convincing myself that everything would be okay and that I have Taran and Carwyn here to look after me as I sleep I was able to slip back to sleep.

Like I stated before I'm not sure if that was merely just part of my dream or a mixture of contact and dreaming. I honestly hope that it is the first choice because I don't want to deal with something trying to "claim me" for whatever reason.

Eating of my heart.

This is a dream from two nights ago. I can not recall most of the dream but I do remember this specific part of the dream;

The setting was underground subway of some kind that many people were living in or taking refuge. I had a younger sister who was about the same age with the same length hair but auburn colored. We were both wearing long dresses in the dream, white ones if I recall correctly.

We both cautiously walked into this abandon store. Things were hanging down from the ceiling from old wear blocking parts of my view at times. But before I could step in to far into the store, I froze and watched a scene happen before my eyes like a vision. I had walked further in with my sister until she disappeared from my view. Looking around for her I ended up being stabbed, I can not recall if it was from in front or behind, but even still I fell to the ground. Laying on my back I peered up to see my sister there smirking at me before reaching down and ripping my heart out of my chest with her bare hand. She then proceeded to eat my heart, blood drenching her clothes and pouring down from her hand.

The vision ended and I glanced over at my sister who looked over at me to see why I had stopped. She gave me a smile, but I knew it was because of the plan in mind. I ended up walking out of the store and back around people. I had told those closest to me about what I saw therefore putting her in lock down. No one let her out of their sight and left me alone with her.

It was such a strange dream to even have, and can easily be classified as creepy. I wouldn't consider this a nightmare though because 1) I have my dream catch to catch those and 2) I didn't feel any fear in my dream. It's just how it played out.






The night before the dream above, that there was one more dream that I was really surprised to encounter to be honest. Taran was in my dream where as he rarely ever decides to make an appearance. It was also quite... passionate. Well, maybe not as passionate as some may think but for me, quite.

In my dream I was surprised to see him when passing down an alley way to meet someone, a group of friends I think. I don't even recall an exchange of words before I found myself roughly shoved against the wall which I do remember it hurting and about to yell at him for doing that until I was basically pinned against the wall with his form, and his hands were on the either side of my head holding it still as he began kissing me fervently. As if instinct, I had reached up, curling my fingers into his hair kissing him back.

I woke up not to long after but I never have any dreams like that, so I was really surprised to say the least. I don't even know if he did that on purpose, or if that was all in my subconscious. But I'm not going to ask him because if it wasn't him on his part I don't want to hear the endless taunting that could come with the news.

Dear T,

I want to talk to you about what happened these past two nights but there is no way that I can. I can't bring myself to ask Mi to channel you so I can talk to you. I just can't bring myself to ask her, she's stressed and has decided to put everything supernatural on lock down.

I'm not sure what to do now, and I don't know who to talk to but you. You have always been around, you are the one who looks after me, and you are probably who knows best for. Far more than my parents. But like I said I can't bring myself to talk to Mi about channeling you.

I wish I could do more, I wish I could hear you, and it was easier to see you. Then I wouldn't have to do this with other people involved. I wouldn't have to bring anyone involved too... I see it as weakness and I wish I wasn't so weak.

T, all I wish is that I can talk to you.